If any of you have read long enough, y'all might know that working too much has its downfalls. Making more money really only makes up for those downfalls to a certain extent.
It's psychologically draining. I can only deal with the conversations so often. I can only put up with the uninvited ass grabs for so long before I starting growling and hissing at my potential customers like a stray cat that just made a kill. God... Sometimes I want to go all feral on some of these guys.
Don't touch me, douche bag!
It's also physically demanding to work too often. All that hip gyration takes a toll on certain hip muscles. Thank goodness my workout program has helped spring those muscles back. I'm sure I could get past the physical problems. It's not just hip problems. My poor feet and those brutal spike shoes.
I can't wait for school. I love school. I love getting A's.
Crap, I just remembered that last weekend I gave a lap dance to a guy who said he was taking the same major as me. Fabulous. This really makes me want to strip outside of town, like a lot of dancers do. But I'd like to spearhead the movement of "not awkward moments" if someone from my class recognizes me when I'm at school.
If it happens, I'm prepared to not feel ashamed, look the guy dead in the eyes and say, "So when are you coming back to the club? Got another buddy getting married yet?"
Anything to relieve tension... And to save my future career. It's so hard to be taken seriously when people know I strip. Saying that makes me want to quit, but I really do enjoy my job when I'm not burned out. I enjoy making that fast cash in such a fun way.
I could be a cubicle slave making $11 an hour if I'm lucky. Or waitressing. I hear about waitresses getting turned out by pimps more than I hear about strippers getting turned out. They also work harder for less money, most of the time.
I think stripping is the job for me, while I'm young. I can't do this forever, we all know that. But I feel that I've got the balls and the body to do it and I shouldn't be punished career-wise because of it.