Reality has mauled me in the face. It's kinda like getting hit in the face by a truck.
See I have a college degree now, since last August. I try not to put too much personal information in this but I have a job interview tomorrow FOR A REAL JOB. I'm too excited.
I don't know how much it pays but I hope it's enough for me to quit dancing.
I can't be working at the club one night and all of a sudden someone in management sees me on stage. I wouldn't even have to see him for my career to be over.
I danced my way through college, just like that tale you hear about some girls. Well, I'm one of them and I can't be the only one. So now that I'm done with college, it's time to make some money with what I learned.
I'm scared shitless but I'm just going to have to put my game on. I've never had a job interview like this before and the lack of experience is driving me nuts. I just need to remember that I am qualified for this job. Degree, internship, I never gave up.
But giving up stripping. Oh, it's gonna hurt. >.<
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Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Half empty or half full?
I've been sitting here trying to think of what stood out to me... oh.
The fact that I made half as much as I made last night. That kind of sucks. I guess I brought it upon myself. I made mistakes tonight. I wasted a lot of time. Many customers weren't tipping and I didn't feel like beating it out of them.
It just sucks to make half as much because when I think of it, I got shot down twice as much. I got too many no's. Stupid Saturday night. I expected to do better tonight.
A particular regular customer has lost interest in me and is now giving money to Whoreface, one of my co-workers. I don't know why I call her that... I just don't like her. I'm jealous, that's what it is. I don't know the girl, but she's just better than me in ways I wish I was better. I'm just pissed I haven't risen to her level yet. I know she makes more money than me. She has better game. I want better game.
Perhaps it's the player - me. I think I just played a piss poor game tonight, unlike last night. I shouldn't have spent the most amount of time with the guys that paid the least. Bad move.
Guess I'll just have to do better next time.
The fact that I made half as much as I made last night. That kind of sucks. I guess I brought it upon myself. I made mistakes tonight. I wasted a lot of time. Many customers weren't tipping and I didn't feel like beating it out of them.
It just sucks to make half as much because when I think of it, I got shot down twice as much. I got too many no's. Stupid Saturday night. I expected to do better tonight.
A particular regular customer has lost interest in me and is now giving money to Whoreface, one of my co-workers. I don't know why I call her that... I just don't like her. I'm jealous, that's what it is. I don't know the girl, but she's just better than me in ways I wish I was better. I'm just pissed I haven't risen to her level yet. I know she makes more money than me. She has better game. I want better game.
Perhaps it's the player - me. I think I just played a piss poor game tonight, unlike last night. I shouldn't have spent the most amount of time with the guys that paid the least. Bad move.
Guess I'll just have to do better next time.
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