Bad night for me. Other girls were doing fine. I failed. Big fat F for tonight. I could not make money. I suck at hustling.
The weather is so hot my eyes sweat. Trying not to admit I cried like a bitch. I tried pulling myself together, but it was useless. Every time I tried to not cry, I'd just cry more. I thought I was strong enough to not cry because money is shitty, but I guess I reached my breaking point.
It didn't help to have a bunch of low-balling pieces of shit treat me like a piece of meat. I just really hated my job tonight. I couldn't handle the rejection, not tonight.
I'm on birth control pills, and today was my last reminder pill so I'm thinking the lack of actual hormones is why I couldn't stay emotionally centered. Chemical PMS, probably.
There is always next time. Ugh, I just hope I bounce back sooner than later.
About Me
- Bella Hack
- Somewhere in the south, United States
- Actively posting since 2010. At this point, I've been dancing for a few years now, and now you can see the transformation and evolution of a girl who picks dancing to pay the bills. It started with the crazy bullshit that seemed out of the ordinary until it became ordinary, now my primary focus is stripping "smarter" and finding a way to replace the income with a "real" job, and to answer any questions to those wanting to know more about the world of stripping.